I am trying to push myself through the exhaustion, that no amount of sleep can help.
I am trying to push myself through the pain & weakness.
I am trying not to feel like I am stuck in a bad dream that keeps repeating.
I am trying to adjust to my body that now feels like a stranger.
I am trying to not get frustrated when there is no quick fix to make me feel better.
I am trying not to feel like I am sitting in the sidelines through things I want to do.
I am trying not to be upset when I swell up or have side effects to medicines.
I am trying to not be frustrated when yet another medicine has been added to my list.
I am trying to do things that are normal to others , that end up taking me three days to recover from.
I am trying to stay as positive as possible and read personal development daily.
I am trying to keep up with as much as I can at home.
I am trying to exercise even when I faint or fall down yet again.
I am trying to learn to love myself through every stage of not feeling well.
I am trying to push myself through the guilt.
I am trying to push myself through the judgement and rude comments of those that don’t understand.
I am trying to push myself through the fear of the unknown.
I am trying to keep my happy face on , even at times when I have to fake it.
I am trying to hide my crying moments, which seems to happen a lot more than I like.
I am trying to eat right even when I have no energy to cook.
I am trying to be the best mama & wife I can be.
I am trying to find things that I am passionate about since I am no longer able to work.
I am trying not to let the fact that most of my out of the house outings are doctors appointments get to me.
I am trying to push myself the best way I can.
I am trying to live well the best way I can.
Yet the most important thing remains...I am trying... Then with each day when you have trained your mind to see the good in every situation & kept your faith in god strong.
All I simply have to do is look into my children's happy eyes and know that all that I am & do is enough. ❤️🙏🏼
